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Jaikus from lily
Sunday, 20 April 2008
Saturday, 29 March 2008
Sunday, 16 March 2008
Saturday, 15 March 2008
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too bad I'm not getting paid for it though.
Monday, 10 March 2008
Friday, 7 March 2008
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i don't know... not really. too stressed. at this p/t job that's not supposed to be a stress. taking over my life. not supposed to be the main thing, but it is. other stuff is okay, but this is just making it all bad. well, other stuff is only sort of okay. i don't even have the presence of mind to evaluate it. I have some sort of occupational disability, I swear I do. I always feel like I am unhappy while everyone else is just bunnies. I let a lot of things get to me and stress me out, when I should not let them get to me. and externally, I always seem pleasant, so no one knows how stressed I am. plus, i have a cold. and once again, I am so hungry I feel dizzy. a bit. I am going to leave now. I was supposed to leave 40 minutes ago, but I feel the need to stick around a bit and collect my thoughts. I think that is the right thing to do. I would rather think and type and recenter myself than eat. though it would be nice, to have both. I can't really afford to buy two meals in a day so I just go hungry and wait til I get home. or get something near there, it's cheaper than anything around here.
Thursday, 6 March 2008
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gmail was bugging out on me a couple of weeks ago, but i haven't had any problems recently. maybe it goes around...
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oh
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what can I do?
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at least you apparently have people to commiserate with...
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yeah, i feel a lot of anxiety and all the pressure they put on me is actually demotivating, in a way, becuase the expectations are too high, its' stressful, and this is NOT supposed to be a source of stress in my life, but it is, it's just this job that's supposed to help me pay the bills, but it's taking over my mind and it's so horrible becuase it's not supposed to take up so much or all of my consciousness
Jaikus from lily